Getting older often brings clarity—and sometimes disappointment—about the spaces we’ve trusted. One of the areas this becomes very apparent is in church prayer. Not all prayers are rooted in genuine care or well-meaning intentions. Some can unintentionally—or intentionally—be manipulative, designed to impress, control, or even silence.

I remember once at a church, someone prayed for me to get a job at Chrysler, implying that if I got it, my life would be more successful and prosperous. In the moment, it felt encouraging, personal, even powerful. At the time, I was in a vulnerable season—young, just embarking on adulthood, trying to get my life together and get my own place. That context made me especially open to believing the prayer was for my benefit. But as time passed and that prayer didn’t come to pass, I couldn’t help but wonder: was this prayer really about me, or was it more about impressing me? About showing spiritual “authority” or insight?

Even in my own book, there were instances where prayer was used in an attempt to influence me to change my message—specifically to avoid discussing sexual abuse. Suddenly, prayer wasn’t uplifting or protective; it became a tool for control, a subtle way to pressure me into silence.

Prayers like these can be harmful. They may impress you in the moment, but when the expected result doesn’t happen—or when prayer is used to control or shame—it can leave you doubting yourself, wondering if you’re failing spiritually, or questioning your own voice and choices.

Here’s what I’ve learned about healthy prayer:

• It prioritizes well-being over results. Genuine prayer focuses on supporting the person, not guaranteeing a specific outcome.
• It’s free of pressure or performance. You shouldn’t feel obligated, guilty, or judged if your circumstances don’t change—or if you speak a hard truth.
• It’s rooted in care, not self-promotion. A healthy prayer doesn’t seek to impress others or elevate the one praying.

Manipulative prayer, by contrast, often:

• Comes with conditions or expectations: “If you do X, you’ll get Y blessing.”
• Is more about controlling or impressing than helping.
• Can leave you blaming yourself for delays, unanswered prayers, or even for speaking your truth.

Recognizing this doesn’t mean rejecting prayer or faith. It means discerning intention, protecting your emotional and spiritual well-being, and understanding that a prayer that manipulates, silences, or pressures is about the person praying—not about God.

Prayer is meant to uplift, guide, and support—not to silence, control, or leave you questioning your worth. Learning this distinction is one of the most important lessons in growing older, wiser, and spiritually self-aware. If the church wants to talk about what hinders prayers from being answered, it’s not simply unforgiveness, it’s also self serving motives! Praying for someone for your own benefit isn’t a prayer that God will answer! God can’t be manipulated at all. A person can pray for you while having hate in their heart for you, people in and out of church can say things simply to impress you, be mindful. All it starts with is vulnerability, many vulnerable people exist in the church, imagine telling a church leader about your marital issues, they may pray intensely for your marriage to be restored, not because they genuinely want that for you, but to impress you, if it doesn’t happen you’re left disappointed! Ephesians 4:14That we henceforth be no more children, tossed to and fro, and carried about with every wind of doctrine, by the sleight of men, and cunning craftiness, whereby they lie in wait to deceive;