After my rape, I couldn’t sit still.

I was always on the go—working, shopping, going out to eat, partying—anything to keep moving. From the outside, it didn’t look like anything was wrong. I looked “busy,” “social,” even “happy.”

But the truth was, I was running.

Running from the pain.
Running from the memories.
Running from the reality of what happened to me.

Because as long as I stayed moving, I didn’t have to feel.

But no matter how many places I went or how many things I did, I never felt peace. I never felt fulfilled. There was always something missing—and that something was me.

It wasn’t until I finally slowed down… until I allowed myself to be still… that everything I had been avoiding caught up with me.

And that’s where my healing began.

In the quiet.
In the stillness.
In the moments I could no longer distract myself.

Looking back, I realize I wasn’t living—I was coping.

Today, I live a slower life. A quieter life. A more intentional life.

And for the first time, I have the peace, happiness, and fulfillment I was searching for all along.

Sometimes, healing doesn’t come from doing more.

Sometimes, it comes from finally being still.