After my rape I remember I didn’t want my period, and wanted pregnancy instead, hmm psychologically this was me viewing my period as danger, because technically bleeding is a loss of control, bleeding is often a part of pain and harm. I felt my body was basically being harmed again, wow! I wanted my period to stop completely, and pregnancy obviously does stop menstruation, basically psychologically I wanted the pain and loss to be gone/stop completely wow. Also menstruation is red, red in most cases signals danger, threat and violation wow! Also wanting to be pregnant seemed easier because obviously you recover from a pregnancy after birth wow!
