After my rape happened, I think about the state of shock that I was in, and wow what if I would have committed suicide due to such intense shock, but then I think about God, if God did all he did for me in the past and brought me out, it would contradict his character to had let suicide take me out like wow God never contradicts hisself, scripture is clear he cannot lie wow I see that now, what it really means, and his love is steadfast, him letting suicide take me out would have contradicted all of that. He is a covenant keeping God wow