After my rape I had such a passion and love regarding pregnancy/babies, even before my rape tho I naturally loved babies, but after my rape my love for babies was intensified and I strongly desired one, reality was this was me having a stronger desire and love for life! God put that love and desire in me to keep me wow! It wasn’t about physical pregnancy and babies, but living and loving life itself and also babies are care free with no worries and taken care of wow! Funny last chapter of my book is even titled: “I love life”