After my rape I was so convinced that I was pregnant, I downloaded the “baby center” pregnancy app, I wasn’t crazy, I was looking for relief, advice on how to care for my violated body, people who would understand me and who I could relate to etc. I even remember writing a post on there about having a miscarriage, this was after I went to doctor to look for pregnancy on ultrasound, but found nothing! Wow! psychologically I really wanted support from my loss of autonomy wow! Truthfully God was protecting me by allowing me to believe that, he knew I wasn’t ready to process the true fact that I had been raped yet wow! It’s ironic, on baby center app I also connected with others who miscarried, I was desperately trying to find support from others who had lost parts of themselves, as I had just lost a huge part of myself! wow 🤯 I didn’t do therapy until 2017, I didn’t think about it before then! Wow!